Regret

So many emotions, overwhelming our senses
but never lasting for long
like a wave tossed through the ocean
our brain flitters and flutters
never staying long enough
in one spot.

But as we sway
to the rhythm of that ocean
a rare cloud sweeps over
that deep blue sky.

The shadow of doubt
lingers unlike any other
for though the waves come and go
changing with the moons and tides,
regret stays and sink through my soul
staining it black beyond belief.

Oh what I would have changed!
What I would have said and done!
But alas, Father Time is too cruel
and our time is
cut

So with no island on the horizon
I must sail on, sail through
with nothing but myself to blame.

——
I wish I talked to you more, waigong and waipo, while you were here. I mis you so so so much, and I just want to see you still, to hear your murmur of shanghainese. Old age is not kind, and your sudden return was not easy. NOw all I can do is comfort and be comforted by the passage of time.

I miss you.

Hypocrites

The term of hypocrisy is tossed around often these days, and likely with good reason. But that begs the question: who exactly is a hypocrite? And how does that apply to us?

The Merriam-Webster definition of hypocrite is in two parts: 1) A person who puts on a  false appearance of virtue or religion and 2) a person who acts in contradiction to his or her stated beliefs or feelings. These days, the more commonly recognized one is the second definition. 

Often, we accuse people of promising one thing and then doing something else, or perhaps claiming one aspect but when pressed, reveals that they actually support the counter-argument. What do we do when we face such issues? How would we be able to differentiate when they lie, and when the truly have honest intentions?

The problem is that at some point in time, we have all been hypocrites. At some point, we have all decided that, perhaps the consequences of such a small white lie would allow for a better result. At some point, we reasoned that it wasn’t the action that determines the morality of the person, but instead, the betterment of the rest of us.

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